San Francisco bridge

Today I want to be in peace with myself so to speak. Drawing and painting is my life. I don't want to run away from it. It is my life though there is noone to admire it. I feel it in my bones and I want to have it in my life. I feel it simply. And if you ask me what you would like to do I would say painting and drawing. I don't want to harm myself just because I differ in many aspects from others. I want to stay in peace and enjoy my life. Nobody knows how long I will live.

Chinese pagoda

This is an example of Chinese pagoda-typical Chinese building for sightseeing. Recently I made a selection of drawings depicting different landscapes. Though it is not a landscape it is still a view. I must admit I'm not good at it. All I like is a human body and I think that I cope with that quite well.
Today I fetched a painting from my painting classes. It is a stunning sunflower. It impresses me a lot. For me paints are a strange and difficult medium. You have to stand in front of the painting for hours thinking what to add. It forces you to think creatively . On the other hand pastel is a quicker medium . First because you can blend it and it doesn't make your clouths dirty to some extend. That's why maybe I'm dealing with pastels for such along time. Definetly it's my best medium.

Tsitsikama national park1

This picture shows a beautiful Tsitsikama national park. Wonderful cool water and a pebbly beach. I sometimes wonder how many beautiful spots are on earth and how people are not aware of them. Tsitsikama is one of them.

As I mentioned I paint, with time my picture starts to take shape. I'm really pleased with myself. Though the painter-teacher instruct me and corrected my work. One thing is for certain that I know or at least I know how to grasp the paintbrush. It relieves my spirit.

I have a dilemma because I'm out of work and I even invented that I will be a florist. I'm afraid of work but at the same time I long for it. As one actress said I'm bipolar. There is something in it. I want to come back to my painting. My next picture will be from Tuscany Rising cypresses in the filds of Tuscany.I start to be fascinated by painting.

Tsitsikama national park

This landscape depicts the Tsitsikama national park. The sea is calm as well as the weather. All the things look stuning. The picture has a calming effect on me. I hope you like it.

As I said before I took to painting.

Landscape3

This is a drawing made according to the photo of Colorado Canion. It is superficial and general but I hope I grasped the outlook of this magnifiscent landscape. It is so great that it is hard to draw. Colourful layers are structured in such a way that it looks like a piece of cake. When you draw it you realize how splendid and calming effect it has on you. Any landscape has a calming and soothing effect. You can give a try in drawing this.

Landscape

Here is my first landscape. This is my first trail. I'm learning to draw landscapes and nature in general. It's difficult but I try. It makes me angry when I try and nothing comes out of it. This is my weakest point.

I'm coming back to the beginning. I want to go to serve people to help in general because I can't help myself. There is a plan to help children by reading . Maybe I 'll try. Maybe in this way I'll help someone and first of all I will help myself. It is interesting and satysfing. I long for it and I want to fulfill my dreams . Maybe in this way I will do what I can. I think that I'm like a dog running in circles to catch my tail. It's so hard for me to understand