Jestem dyplomowaną artystką!!!!

Dużo czasu upłynęło od mojego ostatniego posta. I dużo rzeczy się zmieniło. Przede wszystkim to, że zostałam dyplomowaną artystką. Mówiąc krótko mam na to papier. Trudno opisać słowami jak bardzo się cieszę. Walczyłam o to 3 lata i się udało. Nareszcie. Wiele mnie to kosztowało potu i łez, ale było warto. Jeżeli chcecie zmienić swoje życie, to bądźcie radykalni i nie bójcie się. 
P.S. Podobno Instytut Sztuk Wizualnych w pewnym mieście kończą wszyscy:)).

My cat

Here is my cat. As I promised I introduce real photos into my blog. This one is cute but other photos will be in sepia. Some strange monster tells me it will be a failure but sometimes I wonder what such a person looks like who runs a blog. It doesn't mean that I'm going to insert my own photos but in this way you can realize what my life looks like.

Today I hated myself so much that it almost overwhelmed me. I want to release such feelings because it makes me feel you are my GP. God knows how much I want to detach from such feelings, how much I want to understand and see myself through God's eyes. I experience a thought that makes me feel happy and joyful. It says "you are alive". And that's it more or less. Many times when we feel depressed or down in spirits we don't realize that the energy of life is in us and noone will take it from us. It's so strong and vivid. It makes you feel free from anything apart from yourself. Sometimes when people suffer from depression they want to end with themseves they want to shatter this holy shrine. I don't want to. And I'm on my way to discover how to escape such negative feelings. I hope you feel all right today. There are so many blogs. I hope that I will like my blog. Because what I need is not your attention, your appraisal, your homage but mine to myself. Appreciating myself and noone is necessary then. Sorry to say this. Bye, have a nice time.

"Speckled butterfly"

There was a short break and now I'm coming back with another butterfly. It's fabulously colourful. It's hard not to draw one's attention to it. One drawback is that the background shouldn't be as colourful as the butterfly itself. But who cares. Next time I will know not to make such a various background. It's like with a make-up. You shouldn't underline eyes when lips have already been underlined. It applies to my drawings.

PS I thought out a crazy idea to draw the paintings from the Sistine Chapel. That would be a challenge, isn't it? But I need more colour pencils to face it.

"Grand moth"

Hi again! Today I'm gonna scare you with another moth, though it's not as impressive as the previous one. Just an ordinary moth. You see that such scary animals can be also admirable. It depends on your point of view and taste.

People can be depicted by means of animals. Some of them are sleepy and lazy like cats, some talkative like parrots and you-what animal are you? My personality is a selection of animals. Sometimes I can be even like a little piggy. Funny, isn't it?

Have a nice watching, Ela.

"A speckled butterfly"

Today a new , speckled butterfly. Though it's simple, it looks like it was about to raise from the ground. This effect is achieved by the specific lines of colour on his wings. Thus, it looks more dynamic. Though, the background is sort of boring, it helps focus on the butterfly itself.

Today is Friday. To my surprise, it's snowing, although it's not winter yet. Christmas is already on my mind. My window looks out on a church spire with a big, silver cross. It reminds me of "Memento mori".

Have a nice watching, Ela.

"A green butterfly"

Green is the colour of hope that's why I chose a black-green butterfly. I hope for a better future. I like the differntiated background depicting flowers. Today I had a hard day, but life is hard-so they say. I hope you like the butterfly. There are more of them to be shown on display.

Have a nice watching, Ela.

"Blue butterfly"

Today a new butterfly. I'm amazed by its ultramarine and sky blue colours. The intersting fact is that this insect is so big. Maybe the photo is to blame. Drawing butterflies is a lot of fun, because they demand only a stroke of pastel, nothing more, no shadowing for example. That's incredible how each animal species is different, unique. It applies to human beings where everyone is special. He's like a butterfly with his unique set of colours. It's no use comparing oneself to others, because everyone is like a unique, tropical butterfly.

I'll tell you something. All my life I was thinking that grey is something I should avoid. Some time ago I read an aricle about a woman Marta Gessler- you can even see her portrait on my blog-this is the woman in a blue blouse. She adores grey and runs a restaurant where there are grey, raw walls. Her house has no wallpaper and thus it's also grey.

What I want to convey to you is the fact that what you think is wrong with you, cannot necessarily be so. It depends on your point of view. I'm obviously not talking about your horrendous drawbacks which need changing.

Have a nice watching, Ela.

"Great moth"

Are you afraid of moths? I am. Especially when they bump against a window pane at dusk. I detest them and somehow cannot overcome my fear. However, I'm not afraid of butterflies. I find them soft and timid. They say that in the Amazon jungle great moths live. I cannot imagine their size, but it must be terrifying and disgusting. Here you have a great moth-unusual, embellished in beautiful colours. Such moths are worth admiring, aren't they? Such an insect is a work of art. In general, nature is a masterpiece, something amazing, so detailed. It's hard to believe that it was created out of nowhere like a big bang.

Have a nice watching, Ela.

"A speckled butterfly"

Today is rainy and cloudy, though I'm gonna cheer you up with my next butterfly. The speckled one is sitting on a yellow flower. I'm amazed that this picture has the most views on Flickr. That's strange. What I don't like in this picture and didn't manage to fix is the fact that the petals are in one colour, not a melange of colours. It would make the drawing more differentiated. Actually, the drawings of butterflies were done according to a calendar. I like their colours, but what I don't accept is that they look like child's drawings- in fact some people like such art.

Have a nice watching, Ela.

"Peacock eye"

Today is Sunday. The weather was sunny with scattered clouds in the sky. Here you see my next butterfly- a "peacock's eye"- at least they call it so in Polish. It's a very typical butterfly, sitting on smelly liliac flowers. The butterfly is ordinary, but at the same time beautiful.

I've just said before that I'm a closed person. True. But I thought over the idea of suffering 'cause I felt such remorse, pain and grief to God that I stayed in pain for so many years. Why he did it to me?! And the answer came in a second that the glass of suffering is not the same for everyone. Pain is something relative. It makes me feel the way other people feel. Thus , I can understand them. It's just how it works, as simple as that. When you don't suffer, you are not able to feel the way somebody in pain feels. It teaches you empathy.

Have a nice night, Ela.

"2 butterflies"

Hi, what a day is today. I prepared another butterfly from the collection, actually butterflies. There are 2 of them. They look as if they were just about to raise from the ground. I think that the background and their colours reflect their light, effortless nature. I thought over the idea wheather insert any thoughts by Pawlikowska or P. Coelho or not. I came to the conclusion that it's not in my nature. It's not the way I feel 'cause I'm rather a closed person and not eager to share my experiences with the audience(apart from drawings and my reflections on them). That's why don't expect from me any internal musings. Everything I have to offer is my art. This is what I like most and enjoy doing. In the end my art will last. That is my testimony.

Have a nice watching, Ela.

"Another butterfly"

Today a new butterfly. This time an orange one in the green background. This drawing looks like one from the 60-ties when sharp colours were in vogue. I think that my drawings, especially this one, reflect that I'm not quite normal. In fact, it's hard to evaluate art. It's an area where everything is relative. Some people like Nikifor, some like Picasso and so on. My favourite artist is van Gogh. He looked for his unique way of expression. He could even paint 2 suns in the sky. I try to step in his shoes and here we have an eyecatching background which was invented by me. I have another 9 butterflies to display on show, so be patient.

Have a nice day, Ela.

New portion of drawings

Hi, welcome to my blog. Today a new portion of drawings. This time , depicting butterflies. They were not so hard to draw, just a few strokes of pastel. I regret the fact that their nature is not shown properly. I mean, they are not as delicate as they are in real life but nobody is perfect.

I'd like to start with the orange butterfly. I like the colour very much. In general, orange is the colour of life. It's so vivid and delightful. Not only butterflies but nature in general is so various, different. That's it. Have a nice watching.

To end it all, I'd like to add a golden thought by P. Coelho:"The glass of suffering is not the same for everyone."

" The lobster in the grey background"

This drawing did't actually turn out well. I'm sorry to say this. However, it depends on your taste. This lobster is also from Galaphagos. It's not as impressive as the previous one. It looks like an animal. At least, it is comforting. I'm glad to see such drawings on my blog, because they make it more diverse, interesting in a way.

Now, let's talk about B. Pawlikowska - she is my obsession and I'm gonna follow her advice. You know what. I suppose you don't even ralize how happy you are. First of all, because you are alive and that is the most precious gift. Life is the most expensive treasure you can imagine. How happy you are with your two legs, hands, a healthy heart, liver or lungs. You don't probably appreciate it. You will see how happy you are when you finally lose it.

It's like living with a goat. Do you know that story? Once upon a time a man had a large family and a house to live in with a very small space to move about. He complained that it was so hard for him to live in such a house with so many people at one place. A wise man gave him the following piece of advice: Buy a goat and let it be a part of your family for a year. After one year the unhappy man got rid of the goat and found out how big was his house from that moment on and how much space he gained. This story is by A. de Mello. It's wise, isn't it?

Today a new piece of wisdom by P. Coelho:

" The warrior of light can perceive the miracle of life and fight to the end for the matter he belives in. When he wins , he is able to listen to the sounds of music coming from the sea."

" A lobster"

" A lobster" - the drawing is quite nice and dynamic. You can see the dynamic lines made with soft pastels. It makes you feel that the lobster is moving about. I also like the colours - red and yellow. You know what, lobsters are carnivorous. I wasn't aware of this. They could even eat the members of the same species. The photo of the lobster was taken on Galaphagos. I'm proud of it because in fact I'm not good at depicting animals especially those covered in fur.

I started from Galaphagos and I will move on to the philosophy of the warrior by B. Pawlikowska. The warrior accepts himself and counts only on himself. People are not greatful and one cannot look forward to their help. You are the one who is precious and capable of helping yourself. Only you know your needs and yourself best. After reading this you might realize that Pawlikowska's theory is entirely self - centered. However, the fact is that the positive energy devoted to you has an influence on others. When you love yourself then that love impacts others. In a way you are getting more warm-hearted towards other people. It's like a circle, a chain reaction. I suggests Pawlikowska's exercise: Stand before a mirror and say: I do like myself, I do accept the way I am. Do it as long as you gonna believe it. It really works. Have a try

I made a decision to add " a golden thought" by P. Coelho each day. He also introduces the idea of the warrior. Here is his clue:

" To fulfill his dreams the warior of light has to have strong will and entirely devote himself to the matter"

Fish in the coral reef

This is one of the drawings I prepared the fastest. I like the colours. It is so ful of life.

Turtle in the lagoon

The turtle is majestic and proud like a king of the sea. This time it's a grean turtle which you can sea on his crust.

colourful snail

The work is full of life. I made an attempt to draw sea animals. I adore them because of their numerous colours. I take pleasure in drawing them.

Seahorse

This is one of the examples of marine art. i think it is a success. I like the colours and shades. It is terrific.What i appreciate is that it is something new and besides it is my first attempt to draw animals.