Today it is a long time that I haven't written. Certainly I won't be a proffessional writer because my writing is not fluent however I want to be a proffesional artist. That is my aim and I long for it with all my heart.Above this is a picture which I did with my deseased friend and it is put on display. The lightning is not that good but it is one of my best paintings. It is oil on board. I wonder if you know that it is done with my fingertips.  I turned down that technique because of my health because red posseses some toxic substances. The topic of that picture is "On the Amalfi coast" and comes from Italy. I love that country and one of my dreams is to depict Tuscany and maybe to live there in my private home. Who knows what the future brings.

In general I don't like writing very much because of my internal qritique. It is a hard worker. Besides I have not much to say. I need to do some shopping because I haven't much in the fridge. I feel dissappointed because I set myself very high bars and it is hard for me to overcome them. I imagined myself as someone perfect. I suffer because I wanted to be a good cook and I'm not one. I don't know why. Next time I want to prepare a given text because it is hard for me to start everything from scratch.