A blak post

This time without a painting, not because I sort of quit but there is such a mess in my photos. I hardly know how to sort them. Painting is my passion and not long ago I did a beautiful painting of shells. To me it is a step towars creativity and perfection. For some time I felt that it always be so hard for me to paint something brilliant. Fortunately it turned out that I did a good job and even my teacher praised me for my creation. It sort of boost my ego and helps me to realise that in life it is not always so hard as we think it should be. There are moments of peace and calm and there are long hours of constant scuall when you barely survive. The interesting thing about it is that you never know in what state are you in. You look back in surprise to see that it wasn't actually so bad and happy hours are still on your way. 
Today I was denied a job as a kindergarden teacher just because I don't meet their expectations. I'm not disappointed or upset about it. It just happened and this is it. But my biggest victory was that at the end of the day I wasn't tensed and went bananas over it. I just stayed calm and this is an example of change which I experience more and more every day. It is a miracle I should say. Today I had a nice day no doubt about it. Everyone was nice to me and I was nice to them in return. I flipped through some magazines and looked for a moistorizer for my face. I was constantly on the move today and it was a happy day for me. Have a nice day. bye.......